She works hard for the money!

Well I survived my first week of work! Even though it was only 3 shifts it was just enough to start off. I had a lot of people ask me if I was emotionally ready to leave Brandon while I worked. My response was yes and no, but more on the yes side. I had been out of work for almost 8 weeks. I didn't think that we could afford for me to be out of work for so long, but Josh made it possible by picking up extra hours at work! Brandon and I are very thankful for Josh and really appreciate all his hard work! We love you, daddy!

I was a little anxious my first day. I spent the night before frantically packing Brandon's bag! I wanted to make sure that he had everything that he could possibly need. I'm sure I could've packed a whole suitcase if I could! Getting ready for work used to only take me 30 minutes, but now with B I have to lot myself at least 2 hours! Sheesh! It would be a lot easier if josh was home to help, but he's already at work by the time I need to start getting ready. Trying to put makeup on one handed is quite a task! I wish I didn't have to put the thing on, but I can't go into work with a busted face and expect to make money! I got a kid that I need to put through college!

Anyway, when I finally got out of the house with baby and 2 bags in tow we got to my moms house and Brandon was so excited to see his Lola! I thought hat he would start fussing due to not being familiar with the place, but he took to being there right away! My biggest fear as a parent is Brandon being colicky with others. He had some issues with colic for a few weeks and just last week it just stopped! Thank god!! It was really hard and took a lot of toll on Josh and I, but we are just so thankful that our boy is back to his happy self!

After 10 goodbyes and countless kisses I finally left the little guy behind and headed to work. The ride to work was a quite. I remember getting a little frog in my throat when I looked in my rear view mirror and not seeing him back there.

When I finally got to work it felt so great! Everyone welcomed me with a warm hug and An "I missed you" it really made being away from Brandon a lot easier! I thought that I would forget how to do everything as soon as I got behind the bar, but it was the exact opposite! It all came back to me and I transitioned back into it like I never left! I got to see a few of my regulars and as a proud parent I bombarded them with pictures of him! One of them said "it's so nice to finally put a face to the belly!" that made me laugh!

After work I couldn't drive home fast enough! There is really nothing like coming home to my boys after a day of work. Just coming home to their smiling face is just priceless! I smothered him with kisses and feeding him was so calming!

I'm so happy be back to work! Its like having some a part of my life back that's mine. I've always been very passionate about my job and I'm glad to have adult time and take a break from being a Mom. I was talking to one of my coworkers Ashley and she made a great point, that having that time away from your child will make you a better parent! It will show your child the importance of hard work and independence...

I want to eventually go back to a full time schedule, but we will just have to take baby steps for now...