Just.be.strong!

Well this Wednesday I leave for a wedding shoot over in Friday harbor. I've never been there before and I am really excited... Well kinda...

This will be my first and longest time I will be away from both Josh and Brandon! I will be leaving Wednesday evening and coming back early (not early enough I'm sure) Friday morning! I know that they will both be in good hands because Josh's parents were sweet enough to offer the boys to stay with them as well as look after Brandon while Josh is at work. So as far as being worried about Brandon in the babysitting area I'm not really worried about it, although I just hope that he's a better sleeper with them than he is with me! My biggest worry is that I don't want to inconvenience them. I know that they offered to watch him and are very excited to do so, I just hope that B will be in his best behavior and not give his daddy and grandparents a hard time! I know I'm probably sounding a bit crazy and over thinking the situation, but I can't help it sometimes. I'm sure when I get back I'll be looking back and saying 'what the hell was I so worried about?'

I'm sure Brandon is not even gonna notice that I'm gone, so I think that the person who will be having major separation anxiety will be me. The other thing that I'm most worried about is breast feeding. I don't really pump very much these days, I think I have trained my body enough to where I can go as long as 6 hours without having pump or feed him, but strictly pumping for 2 days will be a bit of a challenge. I worry that I will get so engorged even with pumping that it will be painful or my supply will decrease. Oh, I hope that the twins will figure it out...

Well besides the boob thing and praying that Brandon will be on his best behavior...the one thing that will
make this trip all worth it would be that I may get a chance to have a good nights sleep, cause its been 31 weeks since I've had one of those.