I promised myself I wouldn't cry

I said goodbye to Josh this morning when he left for work it was a bit sad cause it was going to be the last time I see him until Friday night. As I was giving him a hug I just started crying. Oh man what a sap! It was kinda funny cause all I kept saying was 'take good care of him ok?' I'm not sure why I said that... It's not like I'm never going to come back, I think that the emotions just got the best of me.

I took yesterday off work so I could have an extra day to be with Brando! It was nice, we ended up going to the greenlake wading pool with Mama Cherrie and my sisters kids! We had so much fun playing in the water and enjoying the sunshine. I also got a chance to spends dinner alone with Josh at our favorite Korean BBQ spot. We don't have a lot of opportunities to do date nights like that, so we really cherish it when we do. It's funny cause the majority of our conversations are usually about Brandon!

Well this morning I got finished up the last minute packing I needed to do and as soon as I was done I spent he rest of the late morning playing and napping with Brandon! I kissed and hugged him every chance I got. Thank God he let me without getting annoyed!

Well when I dropped him off at his grandparents the water works didn't hit me until I said my final goodbye. He was a bit preoccupied playing with his toys to even know that I was leaving! I knew that if he would've watched me leave it would've been a lot harder! My mother in-law was so sweet and kept reminding me that he will be in good hands and not to worry. When I got into my car and saw Brandon's empty car base that's when I lost it! I had a pretty good cry, but I'm ok now! I got here safe and sound. I called my in-laws to check on him and got to chat with Josh for a little bit. They're both doing good. I think that I'm starting to settle down now. I had a chance to have dinner by myself and walk around town. It was nice to have some alone time and have a chance to take a break from being a Mommy. Although, It is a bit weird to just to sit here and not have to tend to anyone...